Last week, we received news that my husband’s grandfather passed away. I’m not going to lie; it was extremely difficult to hear.

We knew Mark’s grandfather would more than likely pass away while we were on the field, but the news is always hard.

Hearing it makes you want to hop on the first plane bound for the US.

We love being in China, and honestly, there are very few times where we wish we were back in the States…

But news of illness or death always has a way of reminding you…exactly how far away you really are.


However, we decided that going back would probably not be the best decision.

My husband felt like he needed to stay. So, he made a video eulogy for the family to play at the funeral, and we found ourselves spending the week grieving from afar.

We watched the funeral online. The family comforting each other.

While I’m very thankful for technology, sometimes I think it makes things harder…what you’re missing is right in front of you, and you can’t be a part of it.

My heart has been hurting this week.

Hurting for my sweet husband who loved his grandfather so dearly.

Hurting for our family members who will miss him.

Hurting for his wife who I watched love him and take such wonderful care of him over these last 6 years.

And wishing that we could be there…to hug them, comfort them, and just spend time with them during this time.


While these days may be hard on the field, it’s in times like these that I am so thankful for the relationship that I have with my Heavenly Father!

I am so thankful for the comfort that I have in Him!

That I have a personal relationship with him…that I can go to Him in prayer and He gives the peace and comfort that I need.

I know I write about this a lot.

And if you don’t know Him….you probably don’t get why He’s so amazing to me…

But if you are reading this…and don’t know Him, I’m begging you to message me. I would love to share with you how you can have a relationship with Him today!


Mark’s grandfather was such a wonderful man….the first grandfather that I ever had. I am so thankful for the opportunity that I had to get to know him and spend time with him. He always showed me a tremendous amount of love and kindness, and we, as a family, have such wonderful memories with him.

I love that my husband and my son are both named after him.

That my oldest daughter talks about him.

And that  we were able to introduce him to our little An while we were in the States.

It’s also so comforting to know that the first family member my son will probably meet will be his great grandfather….his namesake.

This comfort comes in knowing that his grandfather, in the later years of his life, accepted Jesus Christ as his Savior.

How wonderful!! That we, as believers, have the hope of heaven!


Thank you to all of you who knew about his passing via other media and were praying for our family. Your emails, texts, and messages with words of encouragement meant so much to us. 
I know I am, once again, ending this week feeling incredibly blessed!



2 comments on “Hard Days

  • Praying for you. I just got news this week that my uncle passed away too. I’ve been feeling that same helpless sorrow for the ones I love that I can do nothing for them except pray. But really that is what they (we all) need the most. Thanks for your family’s faithfulness in China.

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